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It's still the collected thoughts of JRTDB. From personal review articles, because I'm fond of writing my thoughts about anything, to chronicles of my art activities and what transpired during the course of my struggle. If there ever was any struggled to begin with.
To my reviews I am welcome to criticism on what ever kind just for the heck of progress, and so does my art.
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Currently, before I proceed in working the new page for the comics project I'm currently in, I've decided to make doodle art of the characters. Since I noticed how I lack in illustrating them, which I should prolly be doing instead of overly idling around.
So for today, the discussion about my regret towards drawing in a not so fast pace. I've had this type of problem ever since I can remember. A paranoia that I can't take away from me, that in itself is my weakest point in being an artist. I can't make artworks that fast, so I go blunt with my clients that I take this number of days to accomplish something.
I have that low of a practice in such things. But I'm motivated and always trying to positively push myself and well if I can't really do it I just take a pause. And enjoy life. Because no matter what I do I will always be worried, because the solution to my worry is something that needs dedication and patience. LOL
Eventually this is a personal article with probably a low chance of anyone ever getting the content. So, I'm going to sum the content up by bullets, happy business like bullets that sums up any point in a professional like manner.
(I want to change that bullet...) Definite profession discovery, and if I truly belong in it. How far can I go without loosing my heart the least, or something akin to it.
Defying. Gravity. (yeah, that song from Wicked the musical) Sending feels in my heart like it gives a type of painful peace.
Romanticism and the sense of confrontation I wish I wasn't fearfully reckless of. As if I can solve anything by ever rushing in, on several context. But I cannot tell if I have rushed in or not if the other party just ups and dismisses you.
The fact that you're suppressing the pain of confusion. The strongest string of distraction pulls you away but you go back to the source and finding yourself not doing anything about it and you're the type of person that rather solve something quickly.
The desire to be patient, on certain things, even though you have had some kind of practice with a level of patience. Which might actually be just delaying tactics.
Why can't I hate or be angry or be annoyed for long? Why can't I hate as strong as anyone? Is there some kind of method to hate so strongly?
(by this point you can tell that the mentality and strength of the thoughts are gonna deteriorate in due time)
Being uselessly annoyed but pulls the emotions down quickly because there is something better to focus on than irrationally thinking about it.
Yet the pain of rebounding comes and you're back to square one.
Just listening to Defying Gravity, which I originally heard a rendition of Lea Salongga, gives you a nice pull in your heart. The right kind to feel so self absorbed in.
This song is such a keeper. Next time I hear about their local show in our theatres I have to go and attend it, even if I'm alone.
Yesterday (to clarify, July 21 21015) my mother wanted to spend her morning with a free movie in our local cinemas. Here in the Philippines, there are thousands (not really, but it sounds like it) of political rackets for every area and their method of treatment for the Senior Citizens. One of which is to give one or two days of free movies for them to view. Whatever movie in the cinemas the old 'uns want they're free for the whole day, just as long as they present their movie pass.
Well to cut the morning story short, I ended up treating my mother and we both watched Minions. Those yellow gibberish talking walking pills.
As everyone knows, or maybe some of, the Minions originated from the movie Despicable Me (starring Steve Carell as Gru, yes I need to state this, BECAUSE!). These seemingly "cute" pill shaped creatures are the "evil" minions of the "evil-villain" named Gru, and according to the story has been with him since he can remember (or maybe I missed the part where he explained how he got to have them?). On a side note, the movie DM is a commercial success majority of the reason is because of the Minions, is what I'm assuming, according to what I can sniff around marketing and media exploits.
Source I did not know this happened. Where was I when this happened!! He looks like Penguin from the Batman series...
Its quite a nice move to make a movie that explains the origins of the Minions, although I'm fairly satisfied just assuming that they were accidents made by Gru's scientist assistant. Discovering though that they were undoubtably natural causes (spoiler) from our own world (or their world) kind of makes you think how come they never really got to evolve. They were born the same way as anyone, through scientific explanations of course, and eventually watched the world evolve while they abruptly stopped evolving (physically that is, mentally a wee bit).
They were explained as creatures that sought the evilest being and make this evil being their "boss". The "boss" that they dreamed of following, (spoiler) which was actually shown from their conception through the eras I could not possibly know which (I'm not well versed with my sciences and histories). I could say they are affectionate towards the stronger, the one who can in any manner conquer by any means possible for psychological reasons maybe.
So goes the flow of the story till the moment they met Gru, (spoiler) kid Gru making a cameo by the end of the movie. Big things happened in the events before they met Gru, but I could tell that the simpleton plot of the movie would actually attract kids. Kids aged 8 below, or possibly lesser than 5. The story is so simple, the execution and scenarios completely random that you might say you paid to watch a Tom and Jerry show for 1 hour and a few minutes (not that Tom and Jerry doesn't deserve to have their movies be shown in cinemas and paid the same amount).
Just, as a simple person (ah yeah, simple, ah...hahaha), of course I was quite amused by all their antics and gibberish. Before I did watch the movie I've heard that the movie had negative reviews, guessing it would. The story seems so random and everywhere. Villain with a shallow purpose, and for some reason it felt like the Minions became icons of heroes even though its much better to just retain their "dumb" like stand as a character.
To a child's point of view its a good satisfying movie, simply amusing and childishly entertaining. But as an adult who seems to have acquired a critic self, my simple self says its amusing and considerable, critic however says its not worth to watch if your aim is to see the retention of the Minions character from the DM franchise.
Eventually I was desperate to try and blog through my mobile but the last time I checked the app for blogspot was only for a specific country. Luckily someone already invented an app for multiple blog use. This will be a short post as I am only testing the app, of course for future uses.
So lets enjoy ourselves. Not in the perverted way.
There was this "craving" of some kind, like a hole in my heart that I wanted to be filled in by any of the encountered titles I wanted to watch but never got the chance to due to <list reason and excuses that doesn't include laziness> before. Reviewing my sources back (that random video about the top list of things and stuff, from WatchMojo), I remember wanting to watch old school cartoons from way back or not so way back. Just any cartoon show that I can sink my teeth in. Eventually out weighing the number of candidates in my list, the top was won over by Clone High.
The story is about a society where several of the residents are clones of famous or infamous people of history. The setting of the series is in a typical American like town where theres that rural home living, several schools for each district, that usual school life works.
The whole idea was actually cool, even the blunt and satirical stereotype personalities and characteristic all given to the famous names in the roster of main characters. Abraham Linclon as an awkwardly dense teen of immense height proportions, displaying his sense of good in the most absurd of moments whilst mockingly displaying his great flaws as a teen in modern age. Joan of Arc nearly not as cool as her counterpart in history, gaining even a helpless romantic clinginess onto her best friend, Abe. And alot of other irrationally modern and parody like traits given to several greatly famous icons of history.
Obviously everything in the premise of this cartoon show is parody filled. From its genre to the use of the utensils of epic convenience and quick cash scheme proportion. The show however was short lived for various butt hurt from many sources reason. I can't blame them, having your countries well beloved icon in history sport a fucking brass on being highly stupid and high on several occasions of the show. There is however several redeeming glory for this cartoon show. Besides the awesome opening theme, that I just biased-ly like due to reasons of preference.
The show delivers absurd messages that many a youngsters would be able to drink well, even if the heightened sexual hormones all over the place concerns me for a very good reason. I am a well grown conservative of things, albeit a believer of letting things be if needed. The show had its moments of sanity and well thought of topics which concerns alot of what can be pinpointed as a problem in our society. Like eco-friendly topics on littering, drug abuse, emotional hormone conflicts, subtle sexual orientation preferences and beliefs, even a slight pinch of religion.
Yet what makes this show shine the most for me is how insanely relevant it is on a scale, and the question of "what if" on what the historical icons would have in our modern times. I know the show doesn't really answer the "what if", since there are several probabilities on what their lives would have been "if" they were cloned.
This show wins for me on a scale and for the future kids of this generation its an ideal show to force them to watch because of insane but fairly relevant beneficial for their brains development reasons.
Yesterday was a very bad time to have feels, due to the unceremonious head ache I acquired because of the lack of sleep I gained the night before. Slept 4 am and woke up just 6 hours after. Least of my funny feels reward was that I spent my afternoons resting slash watching a random movie in HBO.
The film I encountered was quite a ride, it was simple, and again it felt like there were loop holes but I couldn't see them to the blurry eyes I acquired at the end of the movie.
The title of the film: "The Odd Life of Timothy Green"
The movie was about a story of a couple and their experience of being parents to a child that randomly lived with them after some fantastical nature filled events one night. I'm missing the point of giving a point by point flow of the story so I'm going to make it plain and short.
*laugh laugh* *feel* *annoy* *feel* *laugh laugh* *awe awe* *annoy* *feel* *heavy feels* *cry in the corner*
That is the best synopsis I can give anyone due to the nature of the stories flow and events. It's not badly directed, in fact its very favourable. Like reading a book. Characters and their personalities are vaguely realistic, to a point of being over board. The most that hit me hard was the concept of Timothy Green himself, he was naive, and wise (plus he reminds me of my OC and a story I have yet to fix *ha ha*).
Innocence that could put any adult to shame. The adults I best refer to is the parents in the movie, which I can say is actually a very sane thing to do. Parents whose insecurities has built up that they couldn't even be honest even to their selves and the people around them.
The concept though of the parents taking care of a child for how many months and just saying its the back story of their reason to be good parents (something akin to proof of being) to the adoption agency they were telling the whole story about Tmothy to. It confused me at first mind you why they were retelling Timothys story to these two corporate looking people, just to reveal that they were some kind of agents from an adoption agency (assuming, due to the ending).
If it becomes a reality bite, I would say that everything in the story of Timothys life felt symbolical. As if it was true, but the way it was just portrayed was symbolical. Saying, in my own interpretation, that Timothy was born unexpectedly, linking it to the scenario of the couples family and how they felt about introducing him to them. The couple might not have showed young Timothy around because he was kind of sickly. Up until a point though, when young Timothy convinced them to give him a good childhood life. Lets say a trip to the doctors that supposedly went well.
The story goes along Timothy was diagnosed about something the kid accepted was inevitably leading to death, he felt more, however the parents were convinced that he shouldn't worry about it or it might get worse. Devising that instead to insinuate positivity in his life. A thing that might help him cure himself. Spending each time as if it were their last. Experiencing several things they used to not believe in but in the end have considerable and solid proof that they should believe in due to a miraculous proof as if an act of in-deterrable faith.
Until in the end when all things life could give them as a family was done, the sickness brought upon in time and stole the one thing that made them grow up as a family. The child the couple so wanted. That in the end, until Timothys death, was not something wasted but is an investment of strength emotionally gained. Something the couple couldn't have by just being themselves, thinking that maybe Timothy was an accidental birth.
I'm just saying anything can be the interpretation of the story or the truth behind the story of Timothy Green. There is of course no truth but only what the story could tell us.
Oh I wish Annette could be born the same way. Without drama, I wish.
Just what has been happening lately in our local world. One. Word. HELP.
Or Cringe.
I've just recently encountered some post through my facebook feed about an article mentioning that a group of girls are getting their lime light of fame. Honestly I don't really know who they are and frankly I don't care, or wish I didn't try and know about it. *cringe*
The brain of yours truly doesn't really have any profound knowledge of the local music industry, I'm talking about the music industry of the Philippines specifically. Further more focusing on the "entertainment" music industry, as usual, they pick fancy funny songs that more or less catches the attention of the masses by, between the two, being absurdly annoying publicity or fairly in the line of worthy catchiness publicity.
The song I've encountered is more on the absurdly annoying side of fame.
The song is in our native tongue, and I think this is not the original version of it(I...am not sure, further research are all in halt due to the cringe capacity we can only receive in one go, it. is. too. much!).
Officially in this version it was sung by a comedian actor named Vice Ganda(gay, in every fibre of his being), which is by the way the type of satire comedian that absurdly jokes about almost anything or everything and nonchalantly says apologies when someone gets sore because its just a joke. Don't get me wrong here, I like some of his acts, but to be honest he's a satirical comedian with an almost obnoxious air. What could possibly go wrong!? Ha...Ha...
The song is titled "Wag Kang Pabebe" which roughly translates to "Don't Be Spoiled", or something akin to that. Honestly, the lyrics itself, although slang and forcibly poetic, isn't that bad. The meaning is clear, and its "modernistically" sensible. Just, not my cup of tea for the whole composition.
Anyways, my purpose slash challenge for myself today is to translate the whole song in english. Not in the same poetic way as it was composed but in literal terms.
Because! I feel like its going to be funny, especially if one tries to sing it in the tune with the video.
Lyrics:
Tagalog (English)
ang puti ng powder sa kanyang mukha (overly white powder on the face)
ang lipstick ay pulang pula, labi parang namamaga (lipstick too red, lips as if sore)
maririnig maya-maya (hearing later on)
pa-english, tag-lish habang nagseselfie (speaking in english, tag-lish, while taking a selfie)
syang pa-side view at nakatitig sa kanyang ganda (facing side view and staring at her beauty)
biglang nagsalita (suddenly she spoke)
oh gutom pala! (oh she's hungry!)
kumakalam na ang sikmura kung anu-anung inuna (stomach grumbling, doing other things first)
mag mamon ka nga (you eat mamon)
nakaka turn-off ka (you are such a turn off
asikasuhin pag-aaral (study first)
sayang ang matrikula (tuition waste)
huwag kang pabebe! (don't be spoiled!)
huwag kang pabebe (don't be spoiled)
huwag, huwag kang pabebe (don't ever be spoiled)
(chorus) [repeat]
hey miss miss miss excuse me please!
dumadami na mga pabebe, boom panis! (there are already many who are spoiled, boom rotten!)
labi mong matulis para bang nang-iinis (already sharp lips that seems to tease)
oh, bebe jan sa singet mo baka kita matiris (oh, spoiled you, i might pinch your groin)
(verse 1)
miss miss miss excuse me please!
may inuutos pa ang nanny mo kaya bilis (you still have your mothers errand)
nu'ng kaartehan sinabog sa metropolis (when being pretentious was thrown in the metropolis)
bakit mo sinalo? tuloy daming katalo! (why did you catch it? there are alot of enemies!)
(verse 2)
(chorus) [repeat]
pabebe di lang pambabae (being spoiled isn't just for girls)
may lalaking makikita mo sa videong (there are boys you can see taking videos)
tume-twerk it parang "miley" (twerking it like "miley")
porma'y inaanggulo (posing in an angle)
gwapong gwapo (very handsome)
pero bakit pungay ng kanyang mata kakaiba (but why are your eyes different)*
ang taray ng dating (the effect looks arrogant)
oh teka ate! (oh wait older sister!)
ano ba talaga? (what is it really?)
akala ko ay macho, ba't nilalabas ang dila? (i thought you are macho, why is your tongue out?)
kuya! nalilito na ako (older brother! i'm confused)
pero kahit ano pa… (but what ever it is...)
papa bakit nagpapabebe? (papa why are you trying to be spoiled?)
(chorus) [repeat]
(verse 1 & 2)
(chorus)
oh bebe wag pabebe (oh spoiled don't be spoiled)
huwag umarte ng di tama (don't act incorrectly)
baka mabebe bebe bebe bebe be beh buti nga! (you might be spoiled...) <not translating the next part because its a tagalog term that doesn't exactly translating into anything but the action "bleh", can be compared to "bleh bleh bleh bleh bleh you cannot catch me!" but not exactly>
(verse 3) [repeat]
(chorus)
(verse 3)
manahimik kayo walang makakapigil samin! (shut up no one can stop us!)
Okay, it was not fun to do. I honestly felt like I racked my brain in just finishing the whole thing. Further more I salute all the linguists that specializes in translating Tagalog (slang or not) into English and vice versa. I had to ask help using this website "Tagalog Lang" for some of the terms I don't normally encounter any direct english translation.
This experience is quite exhausting to do. Quite exhausting that it diminished the food I ate an hour ago into sweat, or the weather is just crazily humid right now. *laugh*
Either way. End point. There really is something distasteful about the music our current generation is releasing or composing. I can't avoid comparing it to the music of the later years, the years where I explored my taste for music. Saying that the music nowadays cannot be in par to the music then is true and unjust at the same time, because in the first place each music being released these days are not targeted for everyone. Just for the ones who will appreciate it, like almost all genre or types of medias released.
Hypocrite as I may sound, I feel compelled to abhor this song and wish that its fame would die a young death.
The Philippine music industry is not entirely dying, its just changing for the damn worse.
