movie list: Inside Out (animation 2015)

Just so you know watching a movie with a really wide and diverse creativity potential sometimes really ticks me, especially when it's only targeted in one specific market.

That's what me and my friend thought of when we shared opinions about the recently shown movie Inside Out. Damn Pixar giving feels to Feels.

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Inside Out is a movie about emotions in a sense that they are portrayed in a creative cartoon (3D) way. The movie was targeted towards the masses of kids that I'm assuming ranges from 6 to 99 and generally includes the young at heart, mind, soul, maturity, etc. The plot revolves around the main characters pack of emotions as they struggle in a phase of the characters, namely Railey's, life where she struggles to cope with, as my dear friend who keeps on affirming that its, depression or possibly the simplistic first time for a child's life to experience depression (no I don't find the whole thing simplistic, but hey, for kids, fooooor kids).

The movie was engaging and very peppy, and yes the colours are needed for reaction,  I think they did a really intricate study on what to use or do in the levels of the story. Since, well, the whole adult concept of the plot is explaining Psychology for the mind of a kid, or what it can be in a simplified form of educating what their diverse emotions are and what they do (or become, once they become adults). 

Truly, the only thing I was impressed the most is the opportunity to explain that change is needed to grow, even in who or what you are. This movie showed one of the most beautiful representation of how your personality or character grows with time. Like what the significance of each of your thoughts should be and how jumbled your mind can take in once something has been robbed from you.

Personally I reacted more to the viewers and which of the emotions they liked or disliked. I've only had two peoples opinion to base on this but it really shows what kind of character or personality they have on what they felt for each emotions in the movie. Of course, the greater the reaction is the higher it is more likely to guess what they like and dislike towards a human being. I'm not saying its a sure call for the guess, I could probably ask, but it's not my work to study peoples reaction towards any kind of dramatic or intriguing story.

Any who, me and those two friends did an analysis to what we saw from the movie. We listed the top three emotions we were linking ourselves with. Honestly though, it's difficult, because for me each one of the emotions are linked to what I am. Maybe, what ever I do I won't probably know. Since, as I said, currently it's not my job, yet.

The movie is a ride, it didn't strike me too much, till the part I saw about the cats and what the emotions were doing in their head (spoiler, a bit). Now that part of the ending was BEAUTIFUL, it was spot on. Damn.

Guessing. With the way that I placidly watched the struggle of the characters, their growth in adapting to the whole conflict. I've experienced and seen soo much of sadness and depression that I've begun to be "numb" to it. That sometimes I think I understand them, but I really don't and need more information or story, and even have the heart to help. But I've gone through time, and now my age, that I begin to care for other things.

Growing up is painful, but I'm thankful that I experienced majority of the depressing and selfish parts of it earlier. Besides that part about romance. I really did not know I could grow and learn or accept it till now. That maybe another story in its self.

Inevitable . Antisocial? . Onision universe

This may sound weird, but people who give advice and has an official title to give so for specific parts of life in general is respected. You gain a sliver of trust due to that established societal method of acceptance, which I pertain is the title acquired from years of studying and practice.

The issue I see here is the distribution of or who you choose to trust.

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Recently I've been smothering myself with Onision videos, specifically his outspoken opinions about topics he is asked in his website or forums under the YT channel Onisionspeaks. I collectively view all his videos in that channel as his point of view alone and to whoever gives a fuck and for his fans or listeners, they're free to listen to it. Listen, regardless of whether his opinion or conclusion to the topic would match the listeners P.O.V. or not.

Again, since I'm kind of immersing myself with stuff about him, I tried going back to some of his videos disregarding all the questionable and dramatic content. Curiosity is one thing that won't be taken from man I tell you.

I discovered one of his life dramas, namely the one about his ex-girlfriend Shiloh. Who I discovered is a singer before she got involved with Onision, lets just call him Greg. (In context with Shiloh, I like her music. I hope she comes back, as I hear she hasn't done any since 2005/9(?). Kudos to her career)

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That sources' article is funny, but intriguing *shrug*.

I do not like or patronize the action of posting too personal stuff online, since I am generally a private person. But, come on, who doesn't like the drama (and it's the person who's posting the private thing is the one at fault for deciding it generally). Any-many, I saw a lot of mental and emotional stuff enough for me to re-watch it just to confirm that what I heard was what I heard. 

Messy and sad comes into my mind. Greg's choice on how to handle his problem, involving the opinion of several people who is allowed to view his videos made me think every single break up he has gone to is just an act. But who am I to be confirmed of this, personally I'm not going to go deeper, but it was sad.

Moving on to that sad thing is the tons of criticism he received with his "advices". I watched one video, from KSicFlip, about Greg giving an advice to one of his patrons who is thinking of killing their self because of their abusive mother (got a shock that the Onision video linked in reaction video I watched is incorrect, or sort of incorrect since their wasn't even any mention of suicide, but KSicFlip must be just generalizing the whole style of how Onision advices). KSicFlip is against Greg's words in the video. Later maybe I would post the video of the critic for me to remember everything (I did!).

Personally, the only thing I did want to say was, everyone has selective anything. And to me the person who made the criticism just did selective anything. I remember listening to the video, and I know Greg noted in the middle of the video, at the end of some parts of what he said and at the end of the video itself that the only method is to ask for help that's why he pointed out the hotlines.

That's the only thing I want to point out, and possibly the only thing I saw that Greg wanted to pin. However I do agree with the critics other words, giving advice on holding on ones life and trying to take a hold of it and stuff, when I heard Greg say those things I remember myself when I give advice to some of my friends who have issues about something.

I know I'm just spouting words to give them a smidgen of confidence for them from what they feel. But it doesn't mean we're dismissing the severity of the situation when we say it, and if the situation does need help greater than a boost of life confidence giving them information they need that might help is the next best thing.  I do feel guilty of saying it to them harshly, but I had good intentions to the person. However it wasn't her cup of coffee, it hurts that they perceive it differently but I can't control what anyone would think once I spout the words I intend to help (defensive, eeeeey!).

I guess each one has their own opinion that they know can help, same as with the KSicFlip and the one Greg gave to the person who asked help. But in the end these are just words and options given to the person who needs it.

Personally I'd rather look for it myself, especially if it's gonna be hard to decide when you hear peoples opinion of the situation. Sadly not every single being rolls like each one, so as a small whisper of hope for the good that they get to stand and decide it for themselves whatever the method. Or you can just go end everything. Not much choice if one person begins to think drastically towards the brink of life. (reason why people act involuntary acts of kindness, but thats another story)

Edit: Kinda realized this is a slightly biased rant for the side of Onision more? Oh, well, hypocrite and a fan *shrug*. What can I say.

OnisionSpeaks >> join him

jacksepticeye . appreciation . mundane

These days, after my sickness horror and now my paranoid head trying to recover from "something", I've recently spent my ass watching on youtube tons of videos that would and could entertain me in a sense. As I have said before I am completely new in the realm of youtube and so far I have neither that many of subscriptions to anyone nor any content on my youtube(would never dream of putting anything in it, besides playlists and personal entertainment stuff from other awesome people).

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The first youtuber I spend myself wasting my day and watching videos was from Pewdiepie, as I said before as well. Now I have at least five or tons more added in my list of youtubers and currently on my top of the list is Jacksepticeye.

Theres a reason why I like him now more than Poods, besides being bored now of watching some of Poods old videos that doesn't interest me anymore. Its the reality that Sean, his real name, has unique or taste that are slightly inclined towards the same taste as two of my close friends, and my boyfriend. That attracted me to his videos, till I immersed into most of it that wasn't a constructing or science technical game.

His taste for games and eagerness feels genuine, plus I really liked his style, being all over or loud as EF. There is no comparing in reality, his style is unique that people appreciates the uniqueness. He isn't intentionally rude or abrasive or aggressive towards his fellow game youtuber, and like them is quite eager. Plus he has a segment that catches everyones hearts, the Read Your Comments. Which is very practical interaction with his fans.

Also I think I like him because I'm attracted to his charm, cannot deny that. Because I only like a minimal of the games he's played through. As I said his taste is like the same with my boyfriend and two of my close friends. Something that is a plus to my radar.

At this point, I think I understand why most of their fans now are generally thankful and very clingy to the existence of their videos, towards game youtubers I mean. And it's true, even I am thankful for his efforts in keeping up with something arduous as editing a video and spending time to play a game through to its fullest. That is one effort I miss doing.

Now I can't play any game to the fullest anymore, I don't think my level of patience will allow me to do so since my time to do work would lessen. The reality of being an adult.

Jacksepticeye >> join him

CNN channel . Voices of Africa

I recently encountered the CNN channel in our cable list, I honestly did not know it was there. For the most I like the news on cable channels cause its diverse and at least its not a local one. Plus I rarely get to see news from different walks of the qorld, just in 9gag and honestly I'm surprised I get more events information from that site than our local news channels.

Keeping up with what I learned, it was a wee bit the end of the segment, and it was about the tragedy in Tianjin(sorry if I spelled it incorrectly), and of the survivors or the people who managed to run away from the location of the fire and area of explosion. There is no greater example of scenario pulling compassion and sympathy from the soul of man than tragedies, it pulls out the human in you. Guessing there will be alot of pessimistic opinions and characteristics that may show, it still gets trodden by humanities hope of helping another. May it be through prayers or actions. So far a know little about what had happened, but there're alot of information online. Proof of the devastating explosion, I saw it somewhere in 9gag(again in that god "informative" website). News of the people helping each other, I guess comparig their situation with my country in disasters isnt so different.

Moving on, after the international news came the show where they feature articles about Africa, I don't remember if its Voices of Africa or vice versa. Hell, the point is, the show was interesting. Got to the point where they featured Wayaala, a pop singer in their country, she sings in a specific dialect that I forgot. But she dances and does her stuff awesomely, they don't live too grande but she's an aetistic kind. Heck even the things she designs are awesome, fabulous in some sense, not my style but it fits her native aspect. I think shes sung a song by Rihanna before, but it only says so in a part of the show. Haven't tried to search it online, maybe when I get the chance to.

Included in the show we're two other women of the arts, the other one was also a musician and the other was a poet. Its wrong of me to be surprised that even to their part of the world that side of their culture is flourishing. Not that I'm saying there isn't in the first place, there is, I just didn't expect they would feature them. I find it a hypocritical thing of me to think, but its better that I prove myself wrong.

Seeing them feature their own brand of whats popular and going on makes me curious of whats happening in the modern culture and entertainment industry of Africa. Looking at the way they make music and hit the jive, rhythms and beats, kind of makes me proud that they arent forgetting to put a little of their tradition and culture in their modern art. Although I bet there are some who'd be tired of it, and think like those country bumpkin in the movies about living the city life. I like it more if the modern finds its way to be mixed with the cultural or traditional heart of things.

Makes me wonder if in the Philippines its our culture or tradition to feature jologs type of media related entertainment. The rap industry ain't bad, however it kinda repeats itself to the same tragic story, which makes me miss the old school way of rapping. Opm industry, I don't really know, I like most of the indie scene ones more than the commercialized popular ones. For metal or rock genres, there seems to be a large lacking of that in our modern culture. Ballads are more of the pinoys thing, I noticed.

Conversing about the cultural and modernistic integration of ttaditional things seems pretty wide of a subject. However, its very interesting to know or learn of people and their aims or dreams. Those projects they do to make the people around them aware. I forgot to mention about that second African singer, she was a female, and she was part of this song collaboration with 7 other female singers of their country. Their song promoted the power of females in the industry of music, or in any aspect in life.

Call it feminazi of me, but I liked it. The concept, maybe in their side of the country women still gets oppressed greatly. Although I know all around the globe gender inequality is rampant, especially for the "third" sex. Well its the support and awareness that counts.

Edit (sept.2.2015): this post failed to up last time, but I'm still loading it up.

theatre list: Into the Woods (1991 live on broadway)

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Seriously. This Play is my comfort food, I just enjoy this show, especially the 1991 cast.

There is this unsatisfied craving of mine to roam the realm of Broadway or Theatre Plays, and just watch like a normal patron. Unfortunately I don't always have the means to satisfy that craving to watch shows in Broadway or Theatre Plays, besides the fact that its so rare to follow the schedule for such entertainment here in our country. It's also expensive. Of course I always forget to check the schedule of them theatre's, which is also a niggling negative factor to me cause of the distance in travel.

That in the end I always resort to searching online for a nice torrent copy of some recorded show, like this one I found from 1991. This is also the first version of the play I watched, besides the one that I remember. One of my elder cousins did back in her college days, she's part of the art crew and her boyfriend then was an actor of sorts in the story.

Just having the nostalgic factor, plus my fascination towards fantasy stories and the concept of children's stories from famous known ones crossover to each other is just fascinating. Basically I'm a fan of the concept and the story of this broadway production, however I really don't know much about the actors and actresses. They however did an amazing job, they're categorized as my all time favourite, despite knowing that there may be another performance with a greater cast or sorts. Preferences be.

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Either way, this baby was remade into a movie at the end of 2014 that caught me so off guard that I spazzed in front of my boyfriend. He literally saw a tear go down my cheek. I mean, look at it, it's got two of my favourite hollywood actor and actress. Meryl Streep and Johnny Depp, yes I am a fan of the two, I just love both their personality off cam and the way they portray or act. Even if the story or the movie sucks, when they act somehow it gets well justified. In a sense.

Back to the Broadway version, the story itself is very fulfilling. For some it is damn boring and dull, trust me, a lot of people around me just doesn't get enough from all the semi action of the psychological and mental warfare of almost anything dramatic. The story itself has not much drama, as it seems to focus more on the essence of humour. There is a twinge of realistic "karma" concept in the story as we all know almost all fairy tales have a weird and idealistic happy ending. Unlike in the real world when you get what you want or you do what you want, usually some kind of bad karma is waiting around the corner, no matter how long it takes to come or how quick it just pops out of nowhere.

At a young age, and a tad buff into the realm of fantasy, I loved that the stories can portray elements that in my mind makes quite mental sense in a heightened psychological way. Even now I enjoy re-watching the whole Broadway version because of the rawness I see when the actors and actresses play on the stage.

so far, so guilt

This is one of those moments that you shouldn't even be thinking.

For some time now I've only experienced almost 20% of the time from my circle of friends that they complain about their parents. How their mother or father is just the most intolerable person in their lives, sometimes. Yes, theres a sometimes, which often becomes a "most of the time" and ends up being an "always". I used to have qualms about this kind of thinking, complaining or ranting about their parents being complete douche's or something akin to that. And mind you I'm not saying I haven't gone to that part of life that my parents are just up to my necks patience and just gave me head aches for various reasons, but that was when I was younger.

Thing is, we're already in our, or past, mid-twenties already and majority of my friends are experiencing difficulties in getting along with their parents. True, we're already in the age where we should be living away from them so we could live our lives the way we wanted to be, but I'm not going to that point. No, actually, I'm guilty, of comparing my personality to my friends personalities in their situations and even comparing my parents to their parents shoes.

I know its not nice, but its an automatic for an insecure douche like me to think of that sometimes. Which ofcourse I end up guiltily thinking, maybe your mother should have me as her daughter so that they could experience true evil as their child. Or I don't deserve my parents who are too kind for my sake.

In fact the idea is a glorified selfish thought of me.

That's right. I think I'm worse than most of my friends, who in my head deserves to have parents with better characteristics of sorts.

But whats hard is, I can't complain to them about that. Or even say anything at all...

Life is unfair. And so is getting sick. And being a wimp for not recovering as quick as a wink.

movie list: Fantastic 4 (2015)

This might be one of the not so great and not so bad movie I have watched for this year. You could say I'm not correct but honestly it's just my opinion of it. Plus I'm not a fan of the franchise, and making a quaint judgement for the whole production plus movie...it really is mixed.

First off let me introduce Fantastic 4, with little knowledge of what I knew of the whole universe from Marvel, its a group of people that garnered super powers from some meteorite somewhere because of science purposes (I don't know the whole story okay, you can go check this out: Wiki-article). And now because of this cosmic change in their DNA they gained powers and well they help man kind with whatever evils has befallen the unfortunate world of ours, in their universe that is.

Eventually I have come to shed light and simple words of comfort for the Fantastic Four franchise of 2015, at least my mother said she was good with the movie. Even I myself is shrugging at the so-so-ness of it, however its entirety as a movie in the SUPER category, the way it was produced. Could've done better. Even the flow of the story, its a good story starter, but it wasn't stable enough. In a sense its a let down, but its a good base. The base that was half baked and should've been produced better.

What happened? No, I don't really know. Some sources here tells me that the director had big plans but who knows. They say its FOX, you know like FOX channel and stuff, and the way they handled the whole thing. How uncreative they became in choosing their cast, and even their choices of staff (a.k.a director).

However the choices were poor and unexpectedly disappointing short of coming, the end result will still hold, that the movie was a big flop in an embarrassing sense. It would've been better if it was an obvious brunt on the face like M.Nights' Last Airbender. Now that one I agree didn't have a good directing. This movie, Fantastic Four, has a style, its just not for the story nor the franchise. The whole thing felt like a waste of time and talent.

Sad.