The Promise . Emma Blackery . appreciation

The first song that introduced me to the wonderful Emma Blackery was an awesome song she collaborated with Dave (Boyinaband from youtube). The name of the song, "The Promise".

Her voice was really my type, the type you just feel like you'd go and jam with in a mellow rock like way (mellow rock, really?). But what caught me was the songs. As everyone who likes Boyinaband knows he is known for making songs that hits you in the "kokoro" just like that (gotta make that post about him soon), or just plain funky rap songs about satirical things. He also produces tons of awesome songs that I completely question why he hasn't hit big yet.

Enough about Dave, more about Emma, I say!

I have not immersed myself to Emma's channel yet, since I have yet to immerse myself to Vloggers instead of Music makers and Let's Play youtubers. Although some of the Let's Play and Music Maker youtubers I do follow has Vlogs of their own. I only pick the Vlogs that has a full on "just listen to it" feel, instead of the ones where you need to follow what they do on the video.

Emma Blackery, as I noticed, has majority of Vlogs and mostly the only videos I have immersed of hers is the official video for "The Promise" and most of her music, that I must say is really funky and cute.

More about the song.

The song, as my ears perceive it, tells the story of how no one should feel left alone. That you should hold on, reminding you that you aren't alone. Because as the song says, they promise they will be there for you. No more cutting. No more aching. They will listen.

This is something of a real thing. People all around us are internally dipped in depressing and rotting conflicts. Some can get their ass out of those tar holes inside of us, while the others struggle harder. Maybe they are weak in the mind, heart or soul, or they didn't get to have that good social support from the people they expect to get it from. No matter, because in the end something will always eat them, and they will struggle.

Being a person who has once experienced, or still do in tiny bouts, is luckily one of the few who has someone or a "group of" to help me with my times of struggle. They were there long enough for one day make me able to stand on my own two fat unstable logs for legs. Finally waiting for my time to help others in a way that fits their need.

I honestly say I am still not able to do so. There is no way for me to help someone who is clinically depressed, just the ones who needs an ear kind of "depressed" which might probably just be loneliness. Or the ones who needs to be picked up from their fall, and do my best to push them slowly back up into the sky.

Enough dabbling.

This song, matching it with a heart breaking video is one insta-kokoro-kill!

The song is one of the most heart warmingli-mazing ones I've listened so far, and I just couldn't help but want to shout it out to the world. Since I cannot sing, therefore I will shout it out. Even if no one will hear me or even notice me. I promise I will still "sing" it.

Because everyone should be reminded of such a good story.

Emma Blackery >> join her

Inevitable . Antisocial? . Onision universe

This may sound weird, but people who give advice and has an official title to give so for specific parts of life in general is respected. You gain a sliver of trust due to that established societal method of acceptance, which I pertain is the title acquired from years of studying and practice.

The issue I see here is the distribution of or who you choose to trust.

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Recently I've been smothering myself with Onision videos, specifically his outspoken opinions about topics he is asked in his website or forums under the YT channel Onisionspeaks. I collectively view all his videos in that channel as his point of view alone and to whoever gives a fuck and for his fans or listeners, they're free to listen to it. Listen, regardless of whether his opinion or conclusion to the topic would match the listeners P.O.V. or not.

Again, since I'm kind of immersing myself with stuff about him, I tried going back to some of his videos disregarding all the questionable and dramatic content. Curiosity is one thing that won't be taken from man I tell you.

I discovered one of his life dramas, namely the one about his ex-girlfriend Shiloh. Who I discovered is a singer before she got involved with Onision, lets just call him Greg. (In context with Shiloh, I like her music. I hope she comes back, as I hear she hasn't done any since 2005/9(?). Kudos to her career)

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That sources' article is funny, but intriguing *shrug*.

I do not like or patronize the action of posting too personal stuff online, since I am generally a private person. But, come on, who doesn't like the drama (and it's the person who's posting the private thing is the one at fault for deciding it generally). Any-many, I saw a lot of mental and emotional stuff enough for me to re-watch it just to confirm that what I heard was what I heard. 

Messy and sad comes into my mind. Greg's choice on how to handle his problem, involving the opinion of several people who is allowed to view his videos made me think every single break up he has gone to is just an act. But who am I to be confirmed of this, personally I'm not going to go deeper, but it was sad.

Moving on to that sad thing is the tons of criticism he received with his "advices". I watched one video, from KSicFlip, about Greg giving an advice to one of his patrons who is thinking of killing their self because of their abusive mother (got a shock that the Onision video linked in reaction video I watched is incorrect, or sort of incorrect since their wasn't even any mention of suicide, but KSicFlip must be just generalizing the whole style of how Onision advices). KSicFlip is against Greg's words in the video. Later maybe I would post the video of the critic for me to remember everything (I did!).

Personally, the only thing I did want to say was, everyone has selective anything. And to me the person who made the criticism just did selective anything. I remember listening to the video, and I know Greg noted in the middle of the video, at the end of some parts of what he said and at the end of the video itself that the only method is to ask for help that's why he pointed out the hotlines.

That's the only thing I want to point out, and possibly the only thing I saw that Greg wanted to pin. However I do agree with the critics other words, giving advice on holding on ones life and trying to take a hold of it and stuff, when I heard Greg say those things I remember myself when I give advice to some of my friends who have issues about something.

I know I'm just spouting words to give them a smidgen of confidence for them from what they feel. But it doesn't mean we're dismissing the severity of the situation when we say it, and if the situation does need help greater than a boost of life confidence giving them information they need that might help is the next best thing.  I do feel guilty of saying it to them harshly, but I had good intentions to the person. However it wasn't her cup of coffee, it hurts that they perceive it differently but I can't control what anyone would think once I spout the words I intend to help (defensive, eeeeey!).

I guess each one has their own opinion that they know can help, same as with the KSicFlip and the one Greg gave to the person who asked help. But in the end these are just words and options given to the person who needs it.

Personally I'd rather look for it myself, especially if it's gonna be hard to decide when you hear peoples opinion of the situation. Sadly not every single being rolls like each one, so as a small whisper of hope for the good that they get to stand and decide it for themselves whatever the method. Or you can just go end everything. Not much choice if one person begins to think drastically towards the brink of life. (reason why people act involuntary acts of kindness, but thats another story)

Edit: Kinda realized this is a slightly biased rant for the side of Onision more? Oh, well, hypocrite and a fan *shrug*. What can I say.

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concept of media . misconception . suicide

Recently there was a local celebrity suicide and eventually she was still very young. I do not know who the actress was, and to put it honestly I'm very sorry for just discussing this one topic that got me related to her and artwork perception. On this note, even if her family will not see this, I will still say condolences to her family. But I believe that its injustice to myself if I don't say it out loud.

In my plurks list of friends there was one who posted saying that he/she was creeped out by the artworks this late actress drew. Eventually he/she sited the source of the artworks he/she has seen, view it here in this article. So I clicked on it and just found myself browsing to see how creepy everything was.

I was just curious about this said creepy artworks. However I was dismayed to see that several of the images listed in the site, artwork or not, included was to my opinion extremely normal and not even the least creepy. Truth be told I only felt creeped out because it belonged to a recently died girl. Mentally speaking I was psychologically hyping myself to how creepy it was if it belonged to a person that committed suicide, saying to myself "be brave young 'un". 'Lo and behold it was bad of me to expect highly of anything.

I'm not saying she is not talented. Believe me she has the skills, its even better than mine on several aspects. However to say in an article that these are "images were created due to depression" and such. I don't like assuming, and I know it is clear human nature to only see what we want to see. But there are so many things that could have happened AND is a possibility. IN THIS CASE, I will have to debunk my "not liking to assume" nature, because according to what I understand its the case of a misunderstood artist right here.

For one several of the featured artworks, according to my internet knowledge, are clear fan arts based from a popular internet franchise. One was even a clear fan art for Over the Garden Wall, which is by the way a good cartoon series, just don't let the creepy atmosphere deter you from the well executed story.

Theres even someone who explained what some of the said creepy depressing artworks were (and honestly I won't give a solid source because it came from someones facebook and I just hate linking it after it is now buried over all the other articles all those people in my list of friends just posted, oh que labour, too lazy) not her expression of being depressed but just honest to feels fangirl artworks. Talk about misunderstanding.

Those in the article are not depressing artworks, I felt though that those were well done fan arts and artworks that are in fact beautiful (love her style). I could not feel the depression in it, although those quotes might be a little misleading now that she's committed the suicide case. Damn circumstances.

Beyond that point only the unfairness of the misconception they have with her artworks and its bizarreness to me was the K.O.. A lot of people really thought her artworks reeked of depression because of this misleading article. Someones already trying to debunk it mind you, maybe a friend that knew what she really was. And I for one wish I could do the same.

My opinion about this case feels like a sore loser, but perception of alot of people cannot be changed. You can't blame the media for blowing up the whole thing just for a good story that would rouse up peoples opinions. Well played Mainstream Media. However it goes to show that there are several types of ignorance. My ignorance towards her life story is one of them. But you can also see how invasive the concept of Media is.

The ending will always be something we have no say at all. Honestly I feel dismayed because alot of people will be reading the article about her yet we truly do not know what happened or what she is. Except I will stand firm that those artworks do not say how depressed she is, but I won't assume she doesn't have any mental problems.